juz came back from piano and im dam freaking pissed la -.- i juz wonder to myself when was de last decision dat I actually made by MYSELF... its like wtf la.. almost all major decisions in my life have been made by someone ELSE other than me.. lets tink.. almost ALL MY freakin tuitions were enrolled by my mother WITHOUT even askin me.. PIANO oso zzz... den lets see today my freakin piano teacher came tell me.. "oh u noe this st nicks alumni parent is inviting some piano guy from US to conduct master class. she say ask her (my teacher) to ask ME to play. oh ya coz like my mother very supportive of me" oh ya im like wtf is dat la -.- and ist like nxt month? and i have to learn a WHOLE NEW FKN PIECE ya tks la~ i didnt even choose this shit and now im supposed to do it.. like wtf is wrong wif this screwed place la. im nvr even ASKED to do anythin b4 pple juz say 'oh ur doing it' and now i seemingly cant even do any shit bout it.. and my mother like oso dun seem to care.. she muz be thinking 'oh piano ah.. yay good more piano stuff muz be good' -.- den i tell her den shes tellin me 'oh muz be for exposure la' den im like 'exposure wat shit.. why dun u go learna freakin new piece in 1 mth and its not say dam easy la -.- diploma piece la.. its like askin me to learn HALF my exam in 1 mth -.-' dude deres a freaking reasons why im only taking my exam for diploma nxt yr man -.- wtf la~ dam freakin pissed now..

bullshit wif all e 'ending e term on a high note' i end e term and get faced with this freakin bullshit.. not to mention dat my bloody theory exam is tmr! im like gonna burst rite now la -.- tmd im gonna be dam freakin pissed for e whole night man -.- stupid idiots.. fux la get some other person to go play e freaki nthing man.. and e WORSE SHITTY THING OF ALL is dat my teacher told me 'oh jevon is of quite "high standard" so he shud go play la' im like WTF man... when was I of some freakin god noes high standard.. come on i only get 77 for my performing cert,, juz a mere PASS and u call me fkn high standard.. i betya muz be some shit like my mother go around talk cock and end up i gotta do all this fked up crap now -.- FK LA!

sian la -.- im in absolutely NO mood to do any freakin thin rite now.. i juz feel like goin to my exam tmr and fail it like no ones business so i can tell my teacher 'oh so u call failing high standard.. i tink im in e wrong place' fk man... dam fkn pissed -.-